Gavin's Journal
25 July 2002
clouds of endless possibility and hope

where have i been.well on the run as usual.don't take it personally. it has been INSANE .

i kept on thinking about all of you on the tour and at each show i was sooo into letting you know what was up and how things were.

beleive me i was thinking about it a lot.

i felt so connected to the band and the shows and the crowds i guess the tour could not have gone better.we had a couple of duff shows (see monsters of rock) but generally it was the best way to wave goodbye to golden state.

a crazy cycle-think how intense it's been for me.all the changes-nigel and chris and the headfuck of life and what to do when the challenges arise.

reasons are there behind everything.nothing is random and the choices we make are not only predestined but desired.

it can be uncomfortable but so are new shoes.

what a weird journey.

truth is sep.11th changed so much for everyone and the impacts were felt everywhere.it's so good to be healing although the threat remains and lurks.

but all we can do is live with the freedom we can never take for granted

i have been home a week now and i have been on wheels the whole time. the boy is fine and it is so good to be with him.

the XXX track came out or is coming out imminently.i am flying to la on tuesday to go to the premiere and a friend's wedding oh yeah and also the tonight show i think.

still tons to do but i wanted to write and say i have not disappeared or forgotten

but am frantic in getting a bunch of things done till i leave but i'm only away a week or so and i will scribble from a great height looking out over clouds of endless possibility and hope.

otherwise i hope you're not hungry and that today there was something that made you feel alive.

live it up

gavin x